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What is the point of waking up tomorrow if she's not there?

If I could will myself to not wake up I'd fucking do it. But it doesn't work that way.

I treated her like nothing. Now she's gone. She never knew... neither of us knew. If I could go back and not just kiss her, but simply hold her hand once more... and now it's gone.

She deserved more than I could ever give her. I'm the most selfish man alive. I had the greatest gift a man could ever ask for. She was proof that there is a god.

This is hell. To have lived with her and not tell her I love her enough. To take back every fucking cross word and every complaint.

She deserved so much more. More than I could have ever given her.

Now the silence will be deafening.

This morning I broke a clock. I was so tired of its constant clicking. Now that she's gone I don't need it. But it was hers. It was not mine to destroy. It's like I still don't get it. The most amazing woman on earth loved something and I destroyed it. It's gone.

If life is some contest I won it a long fucking time ago. I won. And I didn't even give a shit.

Why in hell did she choose me?


This selfish little fuck up.


If I could tear out my beating heart I would.

I only shaved this morning because she would have liked that. I only do things for her now because I'm too stupid to have done it then.

It's the least I could do.

The love of my life is gone. I can't live on thinking of her in just memories. I can't change them. If I could I would give her the man I had lied about being.

Thank you all for coming.
Well, I'm turning this sucker into a novel... Since I can't afford my comic team as I'm broke as hell, I might as well see if I can take it into a direction that is... FREE!  I still want to finish the comic series one day, but I can't right now...  I've had some good boosts lately that are starting to chip away at this giant block that I've had weighing me down for a long time and I think I can make some real progress- especially because the scripts for issues 1 & 2 and a good portion of 3 are already completed so now I just need to change from comic script to standard novel.  Plus, I get to flesh out more ideas and add more detail on this level.

Wish my fat ass luck!
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Wax
  • Reading: The 12th Planet
  • Watching: Way Too Early
  • Playing: Battlefield 4 on PS3
  • Eating: Pork Adobo
  • Drinking: Black Cherry Soda


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Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United States
Comic is finished... I sent it off to four publishers and got 2 no's and 2 unresponsive. I want to send it off again, but so far every publisher I've looked at is only looking for artists for THEIR already established writers. Frustrating.

Issue #2 script is done and #3 script is 1/4 done. I'm eventually going to create a website for it to get a buzz going.

Current Residence: Herndon, VA
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Favourite style of art: Artistic Nude Photography

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Miss-Melis Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014   General Artist
Happy Birthday!
ShamDaddy Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks! I wad just showing off your shoes the other day! 
Miss-Melis Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2014   General Artist
awesome! :)
NyasiaEsylvester Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Professional
thanks for the fave sham. awesome artwork you have. I'm a model. send me a note if you're interested in the skype shoot i have available. we get on skype you tell me how to pose my photographer shoots it. We send you the images after to draw from 
ShamDaddy Featured By Owner May 29, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I'll draw from what you have so far and see what you think first. 
NyasiaEsylvester Featured By Owner May 29, 2014  Professional
Okay :D 
ShamDaddy Featured By Owner May 29, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
And thanks so much for the compliments especially from someone as talented as you. 
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Molvayas Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday!
ShamDaddy Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
FOVDPhotography Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2013  Professional Photographer
Thank you very much for the :+devwatch: :)
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